a starry nite

rip Rodney Dangerfield

2004-10-06T16:55:34Z

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koolaid_lovers @ 2004-10-06T10:57:00

2004-10-06T15:57:09Z

so cold! i am exhausted. last nite was a nite-long fight between me, brady, and the blankets. i swear i slept sooo little. plus i having crazy dreams. i miss five iron frenzy. i want them to go on another tour. haha. i like shes_a_carnival. she's nice. for some weird reason i feel like i have a friend again. okay yea i'm a n-e-r-d. i wanna go to a show. one week from today is me and brady's two year anniversary!! yay!!! i really need to get some plans going. any ideas?
well im gonna try a nap, but i doubt it will work.
oi oi
♥

koolaid_lovers @ 2004-10-04T09:49:00

2004-10-04T14:49:33Z

morning porridge.
i'm starving and i want a bacon egg and cheese sonic toaster.
so now that im getting over my morning sickness, i want to eat everything in sight.
im going to be a blimp.
with a big pregnant belly.
oh yea.
its raining HARDxCORE here.
my husband is the most adorable person in the entire world.
on october 13th we will be together for 2 years.
i cannot wait.
cuteness abounds.
♥

koolaid_lovers @ 2004-10-02T16:58:00

2004-10-02T21:58:54Z

new layout kids
check it out

whoo hoo

2004-10-02T20:23:12Z

i'm so sleepy today, and pretty much all i've done is sit on my ass and read livejournal.
i guess i did steal a bunch of kurt halsey art. go me.
sounds like bradys home.
im gonna go makeout with my husband
♥

sad and good

2004-09-30T22:30:39Z

well i went to my midwife's this morning and it turns out i was having twins, but i lost one.
but my other sweet little one is doing fine. i heard the heartbeat! it was 168 bpm. i also had "textbook" everything - weight gain, blood pressure and all that jazz. so i'm happy about that. we got a lot covered, the entire visit was approx. an hour and 1/2, so i was really pleased. anyway i just wanted to update everyone. she said i'm healthy and fine and there's no real explanation as to why i lost one. so anyway good day everyone!

x posted to my journal, pregnant and april_2005

well bad news bears

2004-09-30T06:03:52Z

i think i've lost the baby.

i went to pee this evening and passed a big clot that looked a lot like a little baby. the weird thing was i am not bleeding.

so anyway i called my midwife and my mom. mom said i should go to the ER, but Margerett said i should wait til our appointment tomorrow to see if we can find the heartbeat, since i'm not bleeding. it could be a "low-lying placenta" or a "lost twin". but i know what i saw. it totally paralyzed me with fear. i can't really face anything right now, and i'm really sad, but i don't know what to do til tomorrow. i guess i'm just waiting. my mom came over to help pass the time, but we just watched cheezy TBN, so i dunno. brady's being so sweet and supportive yet compassionate. i'm just crying my little eyes out. i'm confused and sad adn really really hurt. how can you get the thing you most want and then 11 weeks and 4 days later, have it taken from you? i dont know how to cope. i didnt do anythign wrong! i quit smoking a month before we even tried to make the little precious and i ate good and everything!!!!! i dont know what to do. anyway enough sad ramblings.
love?

x-posted to pregnant april_2005 and my journal koolaid_lovers

koolaid_lovers @ 2004-09-29T10:05:00

2004-09-29T15:07:06Z

oi oi brady started this morning at 7-11. he's training during the day, but when he starts his shift, it will be at nite. bleurgh. oh well, he'll be making more working the nite shift though. pretty awesome. i actually did my hair and put on makeup last nite. oh so pretty. eep. well i'm gonna clean. so ♥

koolaid_lovers @ 2004-09-28T12:28:00

2004-09-28T17:29:08Z

· X · I N F O R M A T I O N · X ·
Name: lauren-marie
Single or taken: taken. so very taken.
Sex: female
Birthday: 06-08-86
Sign: gemini
Siblings: jonnie, 17; whitney 15; jedidiah, 13; and jacob, 10.
Hair color: black
Eye color: blue
Height: 5'8"

· X · R E L A T I O N S H I P S · X ·
Who are your best friends?: brady
You have a boyfriend/girlfriend/fiance/husband?: my husband is brady

· X · F A S H I O N | S T U F F · X ·
Where is your favorite place to shop: probably thrift stores or target
Any tattoos or piercings: wedding ring tat, ears and nose pierced

· X · S P E C I F I C S · X ·
Do you do drugs?: nope
What kind of shampoo do you use?: usually V05, but whatevers cheapest
What are you most scared of?: losing brady
What are you listening to right now? five iron frenzy
Who is the last person that called you?: my sister
Where do you want to get married?: i got married in eureka springs at the courthouse
How many buddies are online right now?: 16 all together
What would you change about yourself?: um probably my height

· X · F A V O R I T E S · X ·
Color: black red and pink
Food: food sounds disgusting right now
Boys' names: keillor sage and henry david
Girls' names: emma marie and charity lane
Subjects in school: english

· X · H A V E | Y O U | E V E R · X ·
Given anyone a bath?: um yea my brother when he was a baby
Smoked?: i miss it like hell.
Bungee jumped?: hell no
Made yourself throw up?: no
Skinny dipped?: actually nope
Ever been in love?: i am so in love with brady
Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: no
Pictured your crush naked?: uh no
Actually seen your crush naked?: duh i'm pregnant with his child
Cried when someone died?: uh yea.
Fallen for your best friend?: no
Been rejected?: yea
Rejected someone?: yea
Used someone?: yea
Done something you regret?: yea

· X · C U R R E N T · X ·
Clothes: jeans and one of bradys white tshirts
Music: five iron frenzy
Make-up: none
Annoyance: the constant need to vomit
Desktop picture: a little heart thingy
Book you're reading: what to expect when you're expecting and my life by bill clinton
CD in player: five iron frenzy the end is here
DVD in player: um nothing in the DVD, rocky horror picture show in the VCR

· X · L A S T | P E R S O N · X ·
You touched: brady
Hugged: brady
You imed: tartpop_pinup
You yelled at: um brady
You kissed: brady

· X · A R E | Y O U · X ·
Understanding: mostly
Open-minded: yea
Arrogant: i hope not
Insecure: yea
Random: yes!
Hungry: a little
Smart: yea
Moody: yea
Hard working: huh?
Organized: sort of
Healthy: not really
Difficult: yea
Attractive: depends
Bored easily: eh
Responsible: yea
Obsessed: no
Angry: no
Sad: no
Happy: yea
Hyper: no
Trusting: no

· X · W H O | D O | Y O U | W A N N A · X ·
Kill: no one
Slap: no one
Get really wasted with?: no one
Talk to offline: brady
Talk to online: who ever
Sex it up with: um i'm so not in the mood

· X · R A N D O M · X ·
In the morning I am: vomiting
All you need is: love
Sexual preference: guys
What do you notice first in the sex you're into: hair

· X · W H I C H | I S | B E T T E R · X ·
Coke or Pepsi: neither
Flowers or candy: flowers
Tall or short: i like my guys tall and skinny

· X · W H O · X ·
Makes you laugh the most: brady or jonnie
Makes you smile: brady
Gives you a funny feeling when you see him/her: brady

· X · D O | Y O U | E V E R · X ·
Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to IM you?: used to
Save conversations: used to
Wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: well some days
Wish you were younger: no way
Cried because someone said something to you?: yea

· X · N U M B E R · X ·
Of times I have had my heart broken: not all that much
Of hearts I have broken: don't think i have
Of CDs I own: not as much as i used to
Of scars on my body: lots
Of things that I regret: well not loads

· X · Y O U R | T H O U G H T S · X ·
I know: bradys loves me
I want: to have friends again
I have: the best husband ever
I wish: we had more money
I hate: vomiting
I fear: losing my baby
I hear: cars
I search: for nothing
I wonder: if i'm having emma or sage
I love: my husband

oi oi

2004-09-28T16:29:11Z

i've accomplished alot of nothing so far today
i should clean, however i feel like shit.
it's cold and my nose is running wild
we watched rocky horror picture show the other nite
total adoration
my library books are late... oooh
10 cent fines anyone
the apartment guys are working right outside today and its loud and they are listening to seriously crappy music
whoo ha
well i guess i'm off to vomit or whatever it is pregnant girlies do
OH! brady got a job at seven eleven and he's at his (sexual) orientation today
they pay really well and have insurance and all of that, so i'm excited
he'll probably have to work at some super ghetto store, but thats awesome
more great stories for him to tell me.
just hope he doesn't get shot. heh.
okay anyway i'm out. xoxo
♥

koolaid_lovers @ 2004-09-25T13:06:00

2004-09-25T18:08:21Z

god i'm tired of being sick. surely it can only last a few more weeks. then that alleged burst of energy. oh yea. brady didnt get home til 5 last nite. he was exhausted =( i feel bad for him. they worked pretty hard. i really wish there was something i could eat and keep down, cos i feel like a bad mom. oh well. bradys still sleeping and i wish he'd wake up. i suppose thats all. ex oh.

well

2004-09-24T21:52:42Z

whats up with the update page. eww. okay yea anyway, i'm so tired. i've been sick today. i didn't get out of bed until 1:30, and that was just because days of our lives was coming on. oh my god i'm lame. yea. brady's been working nites in addition to days this week. poor honey. he's been getting home around 2:30 and going to work at 8. he had to go to class thursday too. aww. so yea i'm glad i don't have to babysit gigi anymore. that was so annoying. melinda called and said madison can't go out to gigi's house anymore cos she had seven ticks on her. oh yea. thats awesome for a one year old. shit thats gross. anyway so gigi's gonna go crazy and spend thousands of dollars on tick spray or move to amarillo or take a bunch of pills and wake up in a different place. so we're really worried. you can kind of tell i'm pregnant now, i've got this little pudgy tummy thing going. kinda fun. although i'm between my jeans and maternity jeans adn i don't know what to wear. boo. okay i'm done rambling. i'm having dinner with my mum tonite. yay! my sister and i watched "mean girls" last nite. i was more impressed than i thought i would be. it was pretty good. and funny. okay well i'm out. xoxoxo
♥ lauren-marie

koolaid_lovers @ 2004-09-21T17:25:00

2004-09-21T22:26:01Z

does anyone read this? cos i'm gonna delete this if i'm just posting away and no one even bothers to read it.
ex oh.

koolaid_lovers @ 2004-09-21T07:59:00

2004-09-21T13:12:09Z

well i havent updated in awhile
we might move to a little house behind my grandma's til we move to chickasha. it depends on how small it is. i watched madison yesterday. it made me cry, cos she didn't feel good and she cried alot and said "mama dada" over and over. she also slept alot though. i've been cross-stitching like mad. it's cooler than knitting cos only old ladies do it, and it hasn't been overrun by "hip young urbans" (there's a group called "hyuk" - hip young urban knitters - yea... no) i just want to be an old granny. that's all! anyway i'm 10 weeks and 3 days pregnant. whoo ha.

i swear she thinks i am just so young and stupid and since i don't have a job, surely i must be on call for her and all of her silly stupid plans. well i'm not. she's going to get cadyn from amarillo tomorrow, and i don't know how it's gonna work, cos she can barely take care of herself. how she's gonna manage a three year old for 3 days is beyond me. anyway thursday she's taking madison,1 and cadyn,3 to get their pictures taken. okay. well she told melinda, madisons mom, that "certainly lauren will be there" so melinda would let madison come, cos she doesnt trust the old bag either. but she never asked me or anything! so i've come up with plans thursday, even though i know i should go help her, because i dread the worst. this is the woman who poured straight BLEACH on an infant to get ink of it's feet and tries to medicate her grandchildren all the time. i hope she doesn't think she's going to watch my kids ever. i mean never. hahaha! i feel sorry for her, she really thinks she's going to be a major part of our lives... well i really have no plans for seeing her more than christmas once a year. i hope she moves back to amarillo and gets on with her life. she still thinks brady needs to live at home, and she's always telling me how to feed my husband, how to talk to my husband, and all kinds of stuff. and the great part is, it's always SO far off. like she doesn't even really know him at all! she's sooo dumb. i'm just really angry right now, and i'm sure she's a stalker and reads this, so hahaha she deserves to read whatever. oh! and she bought me maternity clothes. VERY nice. stains and laura ashley dresses for a 3 year old. oh yea. garBage sale stuff. not that i don't LOVE garage sales, but i buy nice stuff. without stains. and brady got upset with me cos i wasn't all googoo about them when she brought them over, but seriously. they suck. and she said she's gonna give them to melinda! first off, melinda's not getting pregnant any time soon, if ever. and they don't even fit me or her. so i dunno what gigis problem is. she needs to go live in amarillo and hang out with cara, and cara can wear her stained clothes and be all suck-uppy cos i'm getting tired of dealing with gigi. very tired. i can't wait til we move to seattle or somewhere equally far off. wow this is long.

koolaid_lovers @ 2004-09-13T12:15:00

2004-09-13T17:17:06Z

well uh i just found out that sunday, september 26th, Roper and a better tomorrow (kennys band) are playing at the annex. yeehaw.
maybe kenny can get me in free. heh.
well anyway i need to call me up kenny g.
whooha.

koolaid_lovers @ 2004-09-10T17:04:00

2004-09-10T22:05:05Z

I've got four gmail invites... so comment if ya want one.
leave your name and email address.
I'll give you one if i love you enough teehee.

koolaid_lovers @ 2004-09-10T08:53:00

2004-09-10T14:02:09Z

well i didnt get to go to ingrids yesterday because moms car wouldnt start. and my entire family is going camping all weekend. so i'm gonna be seriosly lonely today cos bradys working late. i'm so emotional, due to being pregnant, but still its kinda like enough crying... but we did have a little scare last nite. well i'm still a little worried even though my midwife said not to worry. but i guess thats alright. i'm just gonna take it easy today and not worry about a job or anything like that. i hope everything works out!
♥ lauren

koolaid_lovers @ 2004-09-09T12:41:00

2004-09-09T17:42:25Z

rayefrenzy is the nicest girl ever.

good morning

2004-09-09T17:22:37Z

well brady gave his first speech today in class... it went well i think.
i feel good today, even though i can't get a job for crap.
i'm going to ingrid's kitchen today.
i called la petite twice the other day and she blew me off both times, i suppose she hired mary poppins.
i made chocolate chip cookies this morning! they are yum. i'm putting together my collection of recipes... fun stuff.
i love my martha stewart cookbooks.
good lord i've said I alot in this entry.
how annoying.
don't add me as a friend, anyone.
heh.
go look at my baby's website here.
well i'm going to brush my teeth and get ready.
xoxo
♥ lauren-marie

mornin

2004-09-03T14:51:22Z

well i just threw up everywhere. *blinks* super fun.
hoorah for baby!!! 225 days to go.
so yea i had my interview yesterday...
it went sooo super well!!!
i'd be a preschool teacher oi oi oi
she gave me the curriculum, and i dont think shed do that if she wasnt planning on hiring me. so yea thats really good. we really seemed to hit it off well, and i dunno it was just really exciting. and to think i didnt want to go! pshaw.
i need to go to the bookstore tonite, maybe brady will feel like it. i also need to eat, roar.
i can't wait til i get a big tummy and i can post pictures and be oh so darling.
whoo. okay yea i'm going.
♥

good mornin'

2004-09-01T15:02:07Z

hello there. i'm so tired this morning! oh well. brady got me really good this morning, he kept saying it was thursday and i was freaking out cos tomorrow i have an interview at la petite, and i am so not ready, needless to say, he thought he was hilarious.

new screen name - i knit you die

man i dont know what to do today. maybe i'll cook some more, clean some, knit some, i wish i had a sewing machine!!!! oh well thats why i'm getting a job. bleurgh. yesterday, i made quiche, deviled eggs and lasagne. i even made the pie crust for my quiche from scratch!

well i suppose that is all. i just got courtney's screenname from brandi. wheeeeeeeeeee!!! i like her. okay yea i'm out.
xoxo
♥ mrs. crandall

poetry post

2004-08-30T18:25:08Z

blossoming into a mother
in more ways than one
im finally confident in myself
yes! i am curvy. yes! i am full!
(yes! i've finally got tits)
and yes i am finally over that last immature stage of life
i am going to be someone's mom.
i will comfort my child when he cries
i will feed her from my breasts
i will give life

i want to feel you for the first time, again
to kiss you, shy, awkward, and sweet
to lay on you, all my weight on you, so protected
your hands in my hair, your hands on my face, your hands on my body
trembling, shaking, nervous, yet certain
i want to see your face when you discover me

i hate her
cute and punky and pierced and hot
sexy seductice sensuous the way only she can be
witty as hell smarty-smart pants. "I like to read"
charm is her weapon of choice
when she steals your husband, boyfriend, lover
the only comforting thought is
at least she doesnt age well

what to expect when you're expecting
is a load of shit
what to REALLY expect when you're expecting:
you're gonna throw your guts up and it really sucks
you can't sleep enough. ever. and when you wake up, you'll be exhausted
you won't be able to crap right for nine months
you'll gain ten pounds as soon as you see the two pink lines, and very few stores have decent looking maternity clothes
and when you do feel good, people will be rubbing your belly and saying "hi baby" to your stomach
but the really strange part of it is that you really won't mind it as much as you think you should

good evening

2004-08-27T02:27:08Z

well i am pregnant!
we will have emma marie or keillor sage approximately on april 17th, 2005.
i'm so happy and i can't wait, because morning (noon and nite) sickness is absolutely no fun.
i had a job, but my first day there i saw countless roaches, abusive employees and they fed the children crackers for lunch.
needless to say, i filed a report with the day care license people.
nothing else is really new...
brady started school on tuesday. he's taking a speech class and 2 online classes at the community college. hence the new computer. oi oi.
anyway i suppose my baby and i are off.
ex oh
♥ le wife